i just sat a beach just now. i was with a friend. Thinking about life and everything about it. My friend said i wishes too much. Not sure of what it means. Sometimes. I feel like I am one ungrateful human being. I complained too much. I nag too much! Myself is like splitting into two pieces. One is always positive and another is always negative. And the negative one seem to be in control all the time and stronger than my other half.
In one glance, i looked like a girl who owned almost everything i want. but inside, if u look carefully, i am a girl who is confused about almost everything. I made a mess out of my life and how worst can it be than this? Well, i have decided, this is just another rough and hard phase of my life that i have to go through. I've been worst than this! What harm can this do to me now?
At this point, when im writing this, i feel a bit lost and emptiness inside me. I also feel a lil bit angry. Disappointment. Lately ive been feeling all the negative feelings. I lost directions. Im worried all the time! I am going to start again. Fresh. I will not loose directions again. I know my priority now. I will right whatever i did wrong. I will be okay! I will run before i could walk again! And when it's done, I'm gonna tell u when its done!
I feel unloved always. I lost my grandma forever. The only person who i can be sure have loved me so much. So far, the only good things that has ever happen to me after my grandma's death is i got a job as a lecturer in Puchong. I'm not sure if this is the beginning of good things or the other way round. I feel it is the beginning of the good things. Ive been jobless for 2 months and that's the reason why my life is going down, down, down.
Im certain, this one can be right. I feel it right. Wish me luck to re-correct my life again.
In one glance, i looked like a girl who owned almost everything i want. but inside, if u look carefully, i am a girl who is confused about almost everything. I made a mess out of my life and how worst can it be than this? Well, i have decided, this is just another rough and hard phase of my life that i have to go through. I've been worst than this! What harm can this do to me now?
At this point, when im writing this, i feel a bit lost and emptiness inside me. I also feel a lil bit angry. Disappointment. Lately ive been feeling all the negative feelings. I lost directions. Im worried all the time! I am going to start again. Fresh. I will not loose directions again. I know my priority now. I will right whatever i did wrong. I will be okay! I will run before i could walk again! And when it's done, I'm gonna tell u when its done!
I feel unloved always. I lost my grandma forever. The only person who i can be sure have loved me so much. So far, the only good things that has ever happen to me after my grandma's death is i got a job as a lecturer in Puchong. I'm not sure if this is the beginning of good things or the other way round. I feel it is the beginning of the good things. Ive been jobless for 2 months and that's the reason why my life is going down, down, down.
Im certain, this one can be right. I feel it right. Wish me luck to re-correct my life again.
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