Double Permanent Loss

This is just me

With a funny way of showing my love for u

Sometime i will say things that are contrast from what I've been tinking in my tiny little mind

In many ways.. I love to trap u with my tricks questions

Just to see if u love me

Isn't it easier for me just to ask?

But this is just me

I throw tantrums at you

Even when I have reasons or without reasons

I get jealous a lot

With or without reasons (Deym and Fook me so much)

But it's because i love u a lot

Loving me is such a painful thing for u

I know u can't take this torture anymore

Not even for one more day

I've turn myself into this so-called beast

And I dun like it either

I just wanna be the girl that u love

This is just me

And no way I'm gonna be the girl that you love baby

I am not the person who worth all the troubles

I guess it's gonna be a double permanent loss this time

I'm not strong

This is just me..

But I guess, at least... Billy Joel will never blame me

Cause I'm always a woman to him (Deym..)

And cause of that

I'm asking...

God please preserve my heart

I want it to be as cold as ice

Let it be freezin cold iced through out the years

Through out many many years!

But let it melt when the right summer comes

(Deym.. not just any summer.. will there be a right summer for me?)

When the first leaves touches the ground

Let me be lost and never will be able to find my way back to him

But let me come back when another heart is meant to be my home

The home that accept me

And this beast inside me